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to tell me u luv me and u want to be with someone else
but u know that i want to be with you and i always wanted that

stop sayin this
prove it
nobody gonna sacrifies for me
why do you think that? how many sun glasses do you wear?
He said:
“in these two years that i knew u ve ya eva heard from me about somethin promisin the whole life is against me i just cant get even the lil things i want the simple things coz u neva played the loser role to say this u arent in ma position to feel it u neva tried it u ll neva feel it u ve won some and u lose some i swear to god there is nuthin worth to keep me alive m alive just to hurt ma self just to hear i luv u but i cant help it i believed about wat i did and i was waitin waitin waitin i neva been with anyone else coz i believed in one day u ll be here wats the used of breakin others hands wats the use of trainin ma self to be with someone else if u didnt like him if u didnt luv him didnt want to be with him u ll neva do anythin u ll neva say no if u didnt truly luv him u ll waste this chance …. do u remember when i sent u the song ”i believe in u” i forgot to tell u, u were the only one i believed to be with m not the only one, but m the most one all ma pages are black tears lonliness night and even the one i was tryin to be with for two years now gone its two and a half”

Me:”why you dont think that, i mean when u think that all your life is like that what you think the reason is ?”

” cursed,unlucky,u had the chance to make it better bright u were everythin i was waitin for can u brightin
ur life by being lonely livin
ur days with nobody can u ?u were everythin i ve and everythin i needis it easy to say that i know how much its easy to u that night i was waitin for u to tell me i luv u and u neva did it tonight u did it to tell me u luv someone else u always come first in ma life”

“it was urs even ma hear i no longer feel its as before. m workin in two jobs do u know y ? i didnt spend anythin from ma money, coz there is nuthin to spend it on m workin just to forget the harsh times, i swear i was dreamin of u everyday m workin i was dreamin that if there was someone with me m gonna go with her ….i thought if i work everythin gonna run fast days gonna go quickly. why ya been with someone why ?? m gonna die wala plz…..all wat i can say i truly luved u from ma all heart dreamd about u u gave me memories, days, u gave me joy an unlimited dreams. i cant imagine ma life without u,plz dont let me go like this  dont break ma heart dont i mean somethin to u ? the heart that has kept u all the time,the hands that are shakin coz they were used to write all the luv songs for u dont they mean anythin to u …this dream was runnin for two years now,this dream was for both of us. u were the first to remember ma bd, that meant alot to me, everythin u did ..”
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Mom, Dad, what part of ”leave me alone” you didnt understand ?! WTF, do I need to be a citizen in the US to say Im over 18 everyday ?!  Sometimes, no not sometimes but you always want to do whatever there’s living in your head, but there’s always your parents to stop you. Duh.
One day I’ll be no longer living in this country, I swear. I was about to do it. here is the silly weird terrifying story, I was about 16 or 17 not sure, I got my first ticket to UK for free. How??  I cant mention that, I was a way too lucky. On the day of traveling, I prepared my bags and stuffs, and called the Taxi (hell, I was too young to do all of that alone, but I did). Luckily my parents were’nt home and I still remember that they were in the clinic secretly to talk to my therapist, I caught them later haha :D. Anyway, when I was sitting on the seat in that freazin taxi with the smell of smoke, I felt like, am I going to be there all alone ?! 
My entire voice: No, there’s people there, dumb!!
My brain: but they’d be strangers and christians, I dont know where to stay and where to study, how to live, how to get my pocket money….etc.
Entire voice: everything is gonna be fine when you reach there. common you’re only one step away.
Me: (loudly) can you return back home please ?!
Taxi man: why? … sorry .. OK !

when I returned back home, I arranged everything back like it was origianlly. Parents home. they called: heeeeeeey are you home Icon ?!
Me: people! where else to go.
They: emm, we dont know you may run away or something, you may hang yourself. you’re psycho!!!!!!

 I am not sick, ok ?. I dont need therapy. But I always need to call my psychiatrist. Shit, when Ill just recover. Do I really want that ? not sure!

my mommy told me i could
be anything i wanted to be:
a doctor, a nurse, a pilot -
but she was [ w r o n g ]
– » i cant be his girl

Clean up your act.
Your story’s getting dusty.
Wash out your mouth,
your lies are getting rusty

Girl: I like him.
Friend: You do, really?
Girl: Yeah.
Friend: Why?
Girl: Are you SERIOUS? have you seen him smile?
Friend: You should tell him. He likes you too.
Girl: He does? How do you know?
Boy: Because I know your friends password…

Last days in Ramadan. a question i got to ask, who was the good slave this year? i mean most of you people (most not all) were busy, actually very busy with life, whether it was TV or hanging out. to be honest, I belong to those people. every year i tell everyone that ill read quraan and lock my ipod .. and so on, but it doesnt work with me.
 So its a short holiday for about 9 days, no uni before next thursday, ill forget all those bullshits about uni and projects and hopefully ill remember them later.
  This morning, there was something missing, but in the end of this morning too, i got it, Lucky me. Im talking in codes: Pocker, playing cards, wedding party on his own plane, ringtone i’ve sent, sex, missing & love, distance, my voice in arabic.

I hate cooking
I hate to cook

It’s hard to wait around for something that you know wont ever happen, but it’s even harder to stop when you know it’s everything you want

When i looked in your eyes I knew it was true, my heart never lies, i was in love with you, as you stood there just looking around my whole body melted into the ground, i remember that day, i remeber that time, i remember that place, still on my mind, you looked so good in your shirt and jeans, i remember that night you were in my dreams, i wish i could be with you day after day, because i love you more than words could ever say

I miss the days you help me, and the days i heard your voice, i miss the days that you were here, us falling apart was not my choice, i miss the days you kissed me and then feelings we used to show, but most of all i miss the guy i used to know

Ive got dreams in hiddin places, extra smiles for when im blue, but that special place in my heart, im saving just for you

If you dont love me at my worst then you dont deserve me at my best

Always listen to your heart, even though its on your left its always right