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 I bet that no one knows the feeling of being an anorexic. To starve all day long, feeling the hunger burning your stomach and yet you love it. It makes you light, satisfied, and the most important thing .. having Control. Though, your fear of losing consciousness is so damn big. There’s a big fear inside your head that you’re going to pass out in front of everyone’s eyes, and you wont be able to face them two days later.
 
 It sucks when you see normal people, they can walk, think, work, study and do everything else without thinking about their weight and if they’re huge or not, and the fact is that they’re so perfect or they could be sooooo skinny and look sick.

   That’s how an anorexic feels, that’s how I actually feel and hate to feel. I dont know how I got it, why me? why it’s so bad? why I can’t just eat?!
 
   When I hear the word “food” it means I have to run away, to lie, to give an excuse like ” I ate before I came”, “I dont feel well to eat this now”, “I hate this restaurant”… and the list never ends. Who’s stuck with me in the middle of this cycle? My parents. They struggle for me ..I mean to feed me, but no use. I can die to save their life.

 I hate this sickness which no one can understand.

 That acoustic guitar has been a real friend to me, I mean it. However, as long as I’m in love with rock, Pink Floyd and metal’, I need an electric one. It makes me rock though it was never easy to choose it until I found a nice web site to tell me How to buy an electric guitar. 
 
 

 Nothing’s better than a guitar to sing with you when there’s no one to do that. He did. Acoustic but amazing and I love it. The electric guitar has more cadences, the sound is so loud and enough to get Mom the daily headache she needs, the color is cool and modern.. I can play it day and night!! 
 
 

 Actually I could not find the same shape and color here in Bahrain so I had to travel to Dubai with a professional colleague to get this lovely invention. I wouldn’t talk about the price, I am not going to tell my father either, I can tell lies, hide the truth for a while, but sooner or later I would have to throw up the truth he wants!! I hate the fact that most fathers do not understand rock, duhhh..

  Take a look..

 I still have to learn alot.

 Electic guitars also can be used for..other desires.

Not that I know a whole lot about drug smuggling. I am however clever enough to not do what this guy did. According to Born Rich:

“A 30-something guy flew from Costa Rica to Fiumicino airport in Rome with a guitar (a black Squier Strat, with the label still on the scratch plate) and 10 thermos flasks in his luggage. The custom officials spotted white powder leaking out of the guitar that was tested positive for cocaine.”

Just how much is a guitar made of cocaine worth now-a-days… $3,598,002. Holy!
  This fellow got way too greedy. Not that I advocate cocaine smuggling but he may have been fine had he just carried smaller loads.  So, overall I think you should use that guitar for playing not toting. 

It’s Sunday morning, I’ve decided not to go to uni and I really don’t know why. I had slept around 4 am because I didn’t want to miss Grey’s Anatomy episode at 2:30 am. But Im used to sleep late and wake up early, that was just an excuse but now I feel regret and it’s  eating my conscious.
 
 I have no reason to stay, I even don’t feel sleepy and I am not in bed either, plus Sunday is the most important day due to the 4 lectures I have, so that was the most rediculous decision I have taken yet this semester!!

 So as usual every morning I sit in the same place!!
 
 And becasue I have nothing to do after the “Lovely” weekend I am posting this worthless post right here..right now!!