How does it feel
I bet that no one knows the feeling of being an anorexic. To starve all day long, feeling the hunger burning your stomach and yet you love it. It makes you light, satisfied, and the most important thing .. having Control. Though, your fear of losing consciousness is so damn big. There’s a big fear inside your head that you’re going to pass out in front of everyone’s eyes, and you wont be able to face them two days later.
It sucks when you see normal people, they can walk, think, work, study and do everything else without thinking about their weight and if they’re huge or not, and the fact is that they’re so perfect or they could be sooooo skinny and look sick.
That’s how an anorexic feels, that’s how I actually feel and hate to feel. I dont know how I got it, why me? why it’s so bad? why I can’t just eat?!
When I hear the word “food” it means I have to run away, to lie, to give an excuse like ” I ate before I came”, “I dont feel well to eat this now”, “I hate this restaurant”… and the list never ends. Who’s stuck with me in the middle of this cycle? My parents. They struggle for me ..I mean to feed me, but no use. I can die to save their life.
I hate this sickness which no one can understand.
Lovely, My disorders, Uncategorized, done, emotions, info, inspiration, interests, sadness, secrets & codes, shits | icon في 6:54 pm
I cant say I know how you are feeling because I never experianced something like this, but I know one thing, there are people who got very extreme cases of anorexic more then you.
So thank the god for his blessing and I hope you soon will be cured from this disease and live the rest of your life happy…
argale — March 28, 2008 \ 3:31 am
well.. i dont know what it feels like to have Anorexia, but i do know that when something like this gets into your head.. you need to fight it!
its not easy… get everyone around you AWARE of whats going on around you, and together you can fight it .. being aware that something like this is happening to your body is the first step towards curing it!
Sous — March 28, 2008 \ 7:58 pm
ive seen a lot of shows and read up a bit on anorexia… can never really understand it without experiencing it though… whats the main reason though? is it the worry about how your body looks?
its mostly psychological, methinks… there was this show on tv a while back that documented two anorexic twins (very extreme) who were on the verge of dying because of what they were doing… they got help and were later medicated and so on… it took a good year or so to bring their lives back on track… they were still not happy with how they looked though… its wierd.
ammaro — March 31, 2008 \ 6:24 pm