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I’ve spent the last three days in London. As usual you dont feel the time where you like to be. Again, took some shoots.

 
 just a random pic.

to be honest, these are things I really had to buy..

 I enjoyed being there, though three days weren’t enough at all, not even close to be. Being there with Daddy means being there alone. That was even better, he was busy all the time, come to provide me with some cash and  leaves again. That was awesome.
 
I wanted to be there in winter its always better. you can smoke to warm yourself up, their coffee shops are so warm and the coffee has another taste in at the time too.
 
 Loved that.

 So much fun, thanks god it’s not boring anymore, for someone who’s fond of guitars and rock I will never feel bored again. We have been taking our guitars and go out to any place, crowded or empty, narrow or huge ..it’s always fun with sounds of our guitars, different guitars.

 Soon and before we fly to LV in September we will be in Dubai where we can see wonderful concerts ..

 
 and that’s what I’m talking about

 This car, aaah no this is not a car, its amazing, I always sing “you can take my breath away..” when I see it.

 I know you can see it everywhere now, I see it with all wonderful colors too, it amazes me though, its lights, its sight..everything, I’ve never expected that I’m going to fall in love with a car. It sounds so silly, so ridiculous!!

 How I love it, I love cars, but this is not a car, this is my boyfriend!!

pool dari?!

 Well, yesterday I drove directly from uni to the beauty saloon, that’s becasue on my way I was thinking of a new hair cut and a nice color for a new look. There, I asked for a light color, Im told that it goes fabulous with white skin. I suppose they dyed it with a light color but what I see now is very dark. Lord, my hair was dark, no change then.

 It looked amazing there, I thanked them and it was really good, but as soon as I arrived home and looked at the mirror I saw it just like before. The hair cut was too short for me though everyone was saying that it doesn’t look any shorter! Maybe I am blinded as my psychiatrist says. Who knows anyway.
 
 I dont like it. I feel bad. My hair was prettier for me, people like it more now. My friends want to dye their hair with the same color and I was thinking “is there any color?“

P.S: Miss Kazerooni, if you’re reading this. DO NOT LAUGH.

  My psychiatrist tells me weekly about facts I already know. He touches my bones and says that I cheat. My diet is not a diet, it is a daily party. I shall never go there again.
 
 Now, this lovely girl, whose body has been damaged by the same disease I’ve got, she’s losing her life, she’s paying the price for her power. We’re living a real tragedy, it is so real and I hate to remember this fact every morning when I step on the damn scale. Mirrors tell lies, scales tell the truth. 

yeah, she looks so fine

Here is the fact: If you think you can get me to break my fast, you’ll have to think again. Just look at me: I am nothing but skin and bones and I might easily die. And if death is the price I have to pay for my power, then I shall willingly pay it. 

   And people will never realize how bad and hard it is. Once a friend of Moms said “you’re a spoiled girl, just go and eat something, its done right?!”. No, it’s not, you’re making it even worse with your cursed words idiot.    Somewhere there are people who understand cases like mine, they pay the attention and try to provide them with the cure, they definitely make others lives better, I miss those people in my world. This lovely model who I used to adore since I was thirteen.
                     
 Anna Carolina Reston, she’s dead now. She had suffered with this sickness and then she passed away….and paid the price.
 Skinny tyranny killed my model girl

November 17, 2006 - 6:34AM
The mother of a Brazilian fashion model who died from complications of anorexia has made an emotional appeal for parents to take better care of aspiring young models.The death of Ana Carolina Reston, 21, follows growing criticism of the use of underweight models in the fashion world, an issue given new significance after the death in August of Uruguayan model Luisel Ramos of heart failure during a fashion show in Montevideo.

Reston died on Tuesday in a Sao Paulo hospital from a generalised infection caused by anorexia, an eating disorder in which sufferers obsessively deprive themselves of food in pursuit of an ultra-slim look.

Reston weighed only 40 kg and was about 1.72 metres tall. Doctors consider this weight normal for a 12-year-old girl no more than about 1.5 metres tall.

“Take care of your children … No money is worth the life of your child. Not even the most famous (fashion) brand is worth this,” her mother, Miriam Reston, told O Globo newspaper.

She said her daughter had been trying to help her family with the money she made as a model.

Miriam spoke on national television and to local newspapers to highlight the tragedy. She said she had pleaded with her daughter to eat more and to see a doctor.

“She would reply, `Mummy, don’t mess me around,’” Miriam told O Estado de S.Paulo.

“Dictatorship of skinny look kills a model,” said the front-page headline of O Dia tabloid, which carried a picture of the dark-haired, big-eyed girl in lingerie.

Many top models come from Brazil and thousands of young girls from all walks of life dream of modelling careers, inspired by the international success of Gisele Bundchen or Adriana Lima.

Reston was not famous but she had worked abroad, including in Japan, and did some jobs for Giorgio Armani and the Brazilian model agency L’Equipe.

In September, Spain caused a storm in the fashion world when Madrid barred models below a certain weight from its top fashion show. Models with a body-mass-index (BMI), which takes into account height and weight, of less than 18 were banned.

Reston’s BMI was just 13.5 while the World Health Organisation considers anyone with a BMI below 18.5 underweight. A BMI below 17.5 is criterion for the diagnosis of anorexia nervosa, and a BMI nearing 15 is usually used as an indicator of starvation.
 

I am paying the price, sooner or later.

I was waiting to have it, and I finally could..

 
Ok it looks tiny here!!

 
Hehe, the best damn thing is that I can write on the screen with my hand writting. ;)

 Looking for something else..

Green has been my favorite color in 2007 :) hopefully not in 2008